(And this took about 15 attempts to get right)
I know I did the right thing, because I am not ready to have a boyfriend or commit fully to a relationship...
but.
Man.
It sucks a lot.
Because you get to know people, right? And then you like so many things about them, and you get them. And they get you! And then suddenly they're not there, and you turn to say something funny to them, or you look at your phone every five minutes and... shit.
You're a tiny little teenage girl again. Go put on My Chemical Romance and eat some cheetos to drown your sorrow you little bitch!
Well that wasn't cryptic at all! I'm sorry! I have very little patience for cryptic people so I try not to be myself. I guess long story short, which you may have already guessed: Seth and I are not so much with the dating anymore. My choice. Which was a good choice. But a hard, grown up choice that I'm finding hard not to regret. I'm just not ready to be a good girlfriend, and that was what he wanted.
I thought when you made grown up choices, everyone was happier.
Or at least you got to have some like, some self satisfaction with making a better choice for everyone's feelings.
No. It just sucks. There is no satisfaction.
There is only eating tacos alone at midnight. I'm going to resist the urge to post some poignant, sappy music video about regret and love and stuff. You're welcome.
At least I'm not waiting in line for Twilight!
Thank. God.
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